犹豫不决的时候

往往人都是要失去后才会后悔，我也不例外。

可是当我已经放手了，它又回来。我真的有点矛盾。

这是我要的吗？？还是我一直都在斗气？？

我可以选择过回以前无忧无虑的日子，享受被人疼爱，被人保护。

可是我已经失去了那一股憧憬，我不再向往那种依赖别人的生活。

时过境迁，我学会了许多，

不再轻易相信任何人，我也学会了什么是独立。

以前我总是依赖你为我安排所有事情，

原来当我自己一个人的时候我也可以做得很好。

虽然我现在的生活没以前好，比以前乱了，

可是我还是会试着去把它搞好，不会让别人为我操心。

以前的我都会去胡思乱想，我累了，我真的累了，

我宁愿什么都不管，想到做什么就做什么。

我为什么自甘堕落？？因为我想要让你讨厌我，至少我们会比较好过，

你不会那么内疚，我也不会觉得自己很可怜。

机会？？没了。。缘分？？还是朋友吧。。

对不起！！我只想要一个人坚强地去面对，只有这样我才会知道做人不可以那么天真，

这社会是很现实的。

说起错，两个人都有错，就把帐算在我们相遇在错的时间吧，

至少我们有过美好的回忆。

我真的是没信心，对你，对我，对其他人，只剩下怀疑。

就让我一个人吧！！让时间冲淡一切，你会找到更好的。。

V.I.P

Okay~ I'm kinda done with my blog's deco thingy. I"M TOTALLY STUCKED!!! I don't really know how to arrange those stuff in my blog. Everything that appears in the blog are Trial & Error. XD 
Hope I can improve once I'm used to it. *sigh*

Let's go back to the topic. 
V.I.P 
V = Vinc
I = Ian
P = PauLynn

I've joined UTAR 华语歌曲创作比赛. I was helping my junior in performing a duet for this competition. I never thought that I'll have the chance to perform a brand new song written by someone. It was quite an unforgettable experience because I get to see people who love music gathering around. *I'm one of them too =D* We did a little bit of spontaneous jammin' & it was fun.伍家辉 was one of the judges. I bought his album. I'm starting to get addicted with his songs. Although we did not get any ranking in the competition, I'm happy ^_^. Because I get to make new friends with people who I may not meet in usual days.  

1st & Ever In My Life

1ST & EVER IN MY LIFE I've written my own blog. I was in my uni's computer lab when i thought of starting to blog. I saw a girl in front of me writing her blog. A thought came to my mind. Am I too outdated that I actually don't have a blog??? o.O

I've got no idea what to write over here. Maybe I should start my story in my 2nd post I guess. I have to rearrange my memories before I throw everything out. So I'll just introduce abit of myself.

My life is kinda messed up and fucked up. I love to club. Yeah!! I really mean it. XD It's part of my life. It is a place where I can run away from the cruel reality. I sleep when the sun rise up. That causes me to have serious dark eye circles & eyebags. T_T I don't take my meals on time. I get hungry all the time. I'm playful. *never imagine how crazy I can be* I've got a gang of crazy buddies. ^_@ I've once been called a girl that behaves like a guy. >< Nobody can control me of what I wanna do. I live my life & I don't give a damn.

Don't know what else should I say.  You'll find out soon about me.

Stay tuned~~ =D